Wednesday, 10 December 2008


I had my mock psychology exam yesterday...
I spent like 3 evenings revising...and it turned out fine. I didn't struggle...I answered all the questions and I think that there is a problem because I actually seem to have done well?!

Now, we must remember that I'm the sort of person who will say this kind of thing and later find out that I FAILED MISERABLY.

Anyway, that's taken a huge weight off my chest...although, unfortunately there's still an annoyingly heavy weight still there.
And no, shut up, i am not talking about my boobs. I'm talking about the exam I have to revise for through the WHOLE of the Christmas holidays. My ACTUAL psychology exam. Which means revising everything, not just the list of things my teacher told us to revise when she knew exactly what would be on the mock paper.

In fact, I feel like boring you all with a long list of things bothering me in my life at the moment.

1. I've just put a check for £100 in my bank account, and soon after realised that most of it will have to be spent on xmas presents for my family, Oscar AND Bape. How annoying.

2. * **** ******!!!!!! Which I'm so annoyed about that I cannot even physically type it up.

3. I have an exam to revise for.

4. My music teacher keeps not turning up to lessons, which will result in my epic failure.

5. There are going to be total strangers (oscar and his girlfriend) in my house for 9 days of the christmas holidays, and yes, I guess I'm looking forward to seeing Oscar, but I don't think he realises how small our house is, and that it will certainly explode trying to contain 6 people plus Bape, who is usually here...and that makes is 7 people. Oh God.

6. I want more clothes.

7. I feel like I'm failing in life.

The above, just incase you fell asleep as you were reading them and need me to remind you what they were, describes how terrible my life is, and how all of you don't realise how lucky you actually are.

On the brighter side, there are a few ACTUAL good things in my life =0

1. I have a boyfriend, who I love, who loves me. And that's awesome.

2. erm...

3......oh christ my life really is crap isn't it.

Oh well. I'm sure it will get better once i get an A in my psychology AS.....which I wont.

And Bape, no complaining that you weren't mentioned in this post, because that would mean you hadn't ready it properly, which would mean I'd have to hit you.

Love you =]


Monday, 1 December 2008

Philisophical Blabber

I'm really enjoying philosophy.

I realised that today when I got really into a discussion about Descartes' cogito and idea about Dualism.

Those of you who don't know, (hopefully not many of you do, because then that would mean I know more than some others =]) 'Cogito ergo Sum' is latin for "I think therefore I am"...which is a statement brought up by some dude called Descartes who wrote a series of 'Meditations'/book kind of thingies, while he was locked in an oven.

Christ knows why he was locked in an oven...something to do with a cold winter...?

If you ask me, the whole oven thing kind of goes hand in hand with some of the phsycotic stuff Descartes came up with...

So yeah....back to the statement "I think therefore I am...".

I'm probably getting most of this wrong by the way, but remember, this blog, as well as being my life TO THE LETTER, is a slightly fictionalised version of my life, which, in my world, means that anything I write here doesn't actually have to be correct. For all you know, everything I'm saying could be a lie...

for all you know, you might not even exist...that's what Descartes said.
Somewhere within his stream of consciousness ('Meditations'), he wrote that we can doubt anything and everything; that we can even doubt our own existence...
but that the very fact that we can even DOUBT our existence...or anything for that matter, proves that we do exist.... in some form....
So, here comes that well known phrase that everyone knows.
The phrase that I mentioned before.
You know, the one that if I were to say it (which I already have, earlier on in this post), many people would think 'oh yeah, I've heard that before')
That one which talks about thinking therefore being.

"I think, therefore I am"

Now isn't that bloody interesting.


Dualism time =]

Dualism then, is the idea that our mind and body can actually be separated, but you would still be the same person...

I think... you were to take your mind (not brain, but mind) out of your body, your mind would be able to live on, as the same person. Descartes also said that "it's possible to imagine oneself without a body...but it is impossible to imagine oneself without a mind" <---- this statement could be seen as partly true i guess....but if you think more into it...what is there to imagine if we don't have a body...nothingness?

Some might agree with the idea of Dualism, (weirdos) and say that 'your mind/personality makes you who you are' sweet.
But some (like me) might disagree and say, "Well, Descartes, nice idea, but it's pretty crap if you really think about it... imagine yourself without your that even possible? If we were just our minds, and not our minds together with our body...then how the hell would we see things in the same way? How on earth would we experience things in the same way? And what happens if we're intoxicated?...surely everyone knows that our mind has an intimate connection to our brain...what happens when we're upset?...WE CRY...and why do we cry?...because of some nonsense that happens in the brain! Didn't think about that one, DID'CHA?"

Yeah, my neck hurts, too much philosophical thinking.

Maybe i'm gonna end up good at philosophy....maybe I can write my own meditations, but I don't think I'd fit in the oven...

Perhaps the fridge?

Nono, I don't think theres even anything more to philosophise (a word?) over anymore....there have been too many people with weird names.

At least I have a normal name.

(just so you know...Moanie Miss Groanie isn't actually my real name, anyone who thought that it was, is an idiot.)

Maybe my mum would find it easier if she were to start writing in the oven, she might get all of her books done by winter the end of winter!

I think I should go now.

Something is wrong.


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